According to the American Academy of Pediatrics, more than 50% of transgender boys have attempted suicide. In WHAT WILL I BECOME?, directors Lexie and Logan unravel why their transmasculine community is particularly vulnerable to living and dying quietly.
We explore the stories of two young trans men who died by suicide. Soft-spoken Kyler Prescott and homecoming king Blake Brockington were both musicians, poets, and community advocates who lived very different lives. Along the way, we elevate trans men accessing and creating resources we wish were available to Kyler and Blake. WHAT WILL I BECOME? asks just this: What can we embrace grief? What can we become when we are witnessed, loved, and have the resources we need to heal?
Suicide prevention is the primary goal of this project. Directors Lexie Bean & Logan Rozos are both trans suicide survivors who have been previously hospitalized and speak from this experience within the documentary. WHAT WILL I BECOME? is a gift to the versions of ourselves who came out and didn't see a way forward amongst overwhelming stressors and binary constructs of masculinity. Everyone who has worked on this project is either a part of the LGBTQIA2S+ community and/or has been directly impacted by suicide. The entire core creative team is transgender.